Continued Health Issues

Ive been battling several chronic and very painful health issues for the past four years.  I now have developed a new issue that causes dizzy spells and severe headaches.  The episodes have become more frequent. I'm already mostly home bound and my husband has to do most of the housework, cooking and physical therapy for me.  This whole time has been a big trial against my faith.  I feel totally abandoned by God.  I cry out in pain, physical and mental anguish to no avail.  This physical, mental and spiritual trial does not budge.  In fact, more trials get added on without relief from the other trials.  I'm at the breaking point.  I can't keep the faith under these circumstances.  Any devotion is done out of fear and duty.  Love is gone.  I loathe spiritual things.  They cause me tremendous pain and severe panic attacks.

Im rambling.  Just please pray for me.  Thank you so much!